untitled #1 (a collaboration with Geo Celestino)

there you go again,
making me hope and wish again
then you laugh at my face again
like you do it all the time.
and i love you more for it
my god, call me a masochist.
I couldn't leave it all behind.

There you go again,
making me believe in love again
then you say i'm meant for someone else
when you know i could care less for star-crossed shits.
my god, i don't even know if this is still love.
I just couldn't leave it all behind.

there you go again,
leaving through the door again,
walking out my life again,
dragging my heart around.
the least you could've done was let me go,
but my god, that was not to be done.
And i still couldn't leave it all behind.

here i am again,
doing all the chasing again
after people who never quite loved me back,
after people who said they'd be different.
dear god, what did i do to deserve this?
why am i still holding on?

here i am again
saying "i'll let go this time."
saying "never again will you break this heart of mine."
of course i fail again and fall again,
fumbling through the dark.
oh god, what do i do?
give me strength to leave it all behind.

there i am again
falling for traps i set myself
promising i'll do better because i know better.
but i'm just a sick joke.
god, i'm who everyone strives not to be.
i'm a reminder the reminder of failed romantics who held on too long.

is this how i'll forever be?
chasing pavements not meant for me?
learning not a lesson repeatedly taught?
living like the dead in a life i actively sought.
promising myself now and again
to never break my heart again
but god, call me a masochist.
i couldn't leave it all behind