"Why are you here?" she asked.
It was the question that he was dreading to answer for he knew that he couldn't lie to her. Not this time. But he also knew that the truth behind his reasons for coming was not what she needed to hear right now.
"Why are you here?" she asked again...softer this time. It was as if she also dreaded hearing what she had to say. You can almost hear a hint of despair in her tone.
He looked at her intently whilst hoping that she doesn't take the truth the wrong way. After a while, he decided to tell her the truth anyway, so he said "I'm here for you. Where you go, I go remember?"
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It was pointless to refuse. She knew that he knew she'd say yes. Really, it was the most pointless thing in the world. Even after all the pain and tears, she knew she wouldn't be able to say no. because in her soul she knew he was the one. Still is actually. For always.
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It was the way she smiled whenever she talked to him. The way her tone of voice would change. The way her eyes light up every time she was with him. She was oblivious to all of this, of course. But that was one of the things he loved about her. It gave him great pleasure to be the one to remind her how beautiful she is, how great she is...it was his pleasure to remind her how much she is loved.
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She never thought she'd miss home...but she did. Very much. She missed the home cooked meals, the air...she missed her dog and her friends back home. She had friends where she was now but it wasn't the same. Hell, she even misses the noise and all the bickering. She missed home, but there isn't any going back now is there?
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Him: Sa'yo pa rin naman ako babalik eh.
Her: That's the point. Bakit magpapabalik-balik pa kung pwede namang mag-stay?
Friday, October 11, 2013
Thursday, September 5, 2013
take a moment
In medicine, they say that pain is the fifth vital sign. Meaning that the presence or absence of it is an important indicator of an individual's well-being. Unlike the other four vital signs (blood pressure, heart rate, respiration and temperature) which can all be objectively measured , pain is highly subjective.
Some may argue that pain is an objective vital sign since it can be measured with the use of different pain scales, I would still beg to differ. You see, each person is unique. With that being said, each person has a different pain threshold. What may be painful for me may not be as painful for you. Therefore, regardless of any pain scale that anyone can come up with, I conclude that pain is subjective.
As I have said, the presence or absence of pain can indicate a person's well-being, medically speaking that is. If there's pain, then something is wrong. It's your body telling you to stop and rest. Breathe! Stop and breathe for a minute or else you are going to collapse. You are going to breakdown.
Are we still talking medically? Eh. Whatever. Medically or figuratively speaking, when it comes to pain, it's all the same. If you feel it, don't ignore it. Something is wrong with your body or with your life (again, medically or figuratively speaking). Pay attention, because no one knows you better than you.
It's okay to slow down. It's okay to change your pace. So take a moment. Smell the flowers.
Some may argue that pain is an objective vital sign since it can be measured with the use of different pain scales, I would still beg to differ. You see, each person is unique. With that being said, each person has a different pain threshold. What may be painful for me may not be as painful for you. Therefore, regardless of any pain scale that anyone can come up with, I conclude that pain is subjective.
As I have said, the presence or absence of pain can indicate a person's well-being, medically speaking that is. If there's pain, then something is wrong. It's your body telling you to stop and rest. Breathe! Stop and breathe for a minute or else you are going to collapse. You are going to breakdown.
Are we still talking medically? Eh. Whatever. Medically or figuratively speaking, when it comes to pain, it's all the same. If you feel it, don't ignore it. Something is wrong with your body or with your life (again, medically or figuratively speaking). Pay attention, because no one knows you better than you.
It's okay to slow down. It's okay to change your pace. So take a moment. Smell the flowers.
...Eh. I'd post something sensible later.
NAME : Rae
BIRTH DATE: 25 Nov
PRESENT ADDRESS: Makati City
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = water, detox
2. last phone call = Rai
3. last text message = Angel
4. last song you listened to = I can't make you love me
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = No
7. been cheated on = yes
8. kissed someone & regretted it = No. Never regret a kiss
9. lost someone special = Yes.
10. been depressed = Yes.
11. been drunk and threw up = Yes.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Red
13. Rosso
14. Rete
LAST YEAR (2012), HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend = Yes.
16. Fallen out of love = err.YEs
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes.
18. Met someone who changed you = Yes!
19. Found out who your true friends were = Yes :D
20. Found out someone was talking about you = hmmm. Maybe?
21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = I don't remember. hahaha
GENERAL:
22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = You want me to compute?? seriously? Rough estimate would be 70%. I guess.
24. Do you have any pets = Yes! I think he's a half mix terrier.
25. Do you want to change your name = No. Make it shorter maybe.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = Practiced for a Christmas show then went out to dinner with friends.
27. What time did you wake up today = 6 am-ish.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = I was asleep -_-
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Nothing.
30. Last time you saw your Mother = last night...through Skype.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = hmmmm. nothing.
32. What are you listening to right now = I whip my hair back and forth! AHhahaha
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = Not yet.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Money/
38. Relationship Status = Single and waiting.
39. Zodiac sign = Sagittarius
40. He or She = She
41. Elementary = Lingayen Educational Center
42. High School = Binmaley Catholic Shool
43. College = University of Pangasinan
44. Hair color= Brown-ish
45. Long or short = Getting longer
46. Height = 5 ft 2in
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = Channing Tatum *drool*
48. What do you like about yourself? = I have pretty hands.
49. Piercings = None
50. Tattoos = Want to get one
51. Righty or lefty= Righty
FIRSTS:
52. First surgery= None
53. First piercing = Ears
54. First best friend = Jaja
55. First sport you joined = basketball. hahaha
56. First vacation = I don't remember. Pampanga?
58. First pair of trainers =By trainers, you mean?
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = None
60. Drinking = Water
61. I'm about to = finish this one..
62. Listening to = Anyone who had a heart
63. Waiting for = Tomorrow...and an idea to come.
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids? = Yes. a boy and a girl.
65. Get Married? = YES.
66. Career? = I think I'll pursue writing after all.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller = Taller.
70. Older or Younger = Wiser hahaha
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneously Romantic!
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = STomach
73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = hesitant trouble maker. Ha!
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger = NO.
77. Drank hard liquor = Yes.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Glasses! I need my glasses back -_-
79. Sex on first date = Oh no no
80. Broke someone's heart = Oh I don't know...
81. Had your own heart broken = Oh yes.
82. Been arrested = hahaha that would be a riot.
83. Turned someone down = Yes
84. Cried when someone died = Yes
85. Fallen for a friend = No
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Most days
87. Miracles = Yes.
88. Love at first sight = hmm. Can I get back to you on that?
89. Heaven = and afterlife
90. Santa Claus = No.
91. Kiss on the first date = No.
92. Angels = Yes
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Me,Myself and My Awesome Randomness: LAST
Me,Myself and My Awesome Randomness: LAST: “Home wasn't a set house, or a single town on a map. It was wherever the people who loved you were, whenever you were together. Not a pl...
Friday, August 16, 2013
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She said:
It would've been easier had he said what was on his mind...then i would've never had to guess...then we wouldn't be trapped in all this shit (for lack of a better word) right now. Yes, it would have been easier for the both of us to get on with our lives if only he would say what was on his mind.
He said:
It would have been easier had I said what was bothering me. Had I explained myself the she never would've felt the need to assume. But what do you say when there's really nothing you can say? I don't want to keep her hanging...waiting for me to explain what happened.I don't know how to tell her that I don't know what went wrong. She deserves better than that. Yes, it would have been easier for the both of us to get on with our lives if only I could tell her what's on my mind.
It would've been easier had he said what was on his mind...then i would've never had to guess...then we wouldn't be trapped in all this shit (for lack of a better word) right now. Yes, it would have been easier for the both of us to get on with our lives if only he would say what was on his mind.
He said:
It would have been easier had I said what was bothering me. Had I explained myself the she never would've felt the need to assume. But what do you say when there's really nothing you can say? I don't want to keep her hanging...waiting for me to explain what happened.I don't know how to tell her that I don't know what went wrong. She deserves better than that. Yes, it would have been easier for the both of us to get on with our lives if only I could tell her what's on my mind.
Saturday, August 3, 2013
LAST
“Home wasn't a set house, or a single town on a map. It was wherever the people who loved you were, whenever you were together. Not a place, but a moment, and then another, building on each other like bricks to create a solid shelter that you take with you for your entire life, wherever you may go.”
― Sarah Dessen, What Happened to Goodbye
People have been asking why I was leaving. Bakit daw hindi ko na tapusin yung 2-years experience. Sayang daw kasi, malapit naman na. I'd always answer with "Financial reasons po." It seemed an understandable and irrevocable reason as to why I couldn't stay. Then they'd ask, "Saan ka pupunta niyan?" I'd often answer with a laugh or a modest smile or a vague answer. The answers that I gave were never lies. At least not entirely. But I am also leaving for other reasons...and yes, I am leaving for love, loyalty and the promises that I have made.
Coming to this decision wasn't easy. I had many things to consider. Primarily, what kept holding me back was the sense of pride and responsibility that I had for my profession...Yung license na mahigit apat na taon kong pinaglaanan ng luha, dugo at pawis...na pinagpaguran din ng nanay ko. That's another reason, you know. My mother, what would she say? Then there was the question of if I could actually go through with it. I've never been on my own. Kaya ko kaya?
So many questions. So many doubts.
Eventually, I had to decide. I handed in my resignation with, still, a little room for doubt in my heart.. But I said to myself, "It's now or never...better NOW than never." So here I am now. As I am writing this, I grow more certain that I can not stay. Like I said, I am doing this for love, loyalty and oaths.
Love...not only for a separate person but love for myself, first and foremost. I owe it to myself to take a leap of faith...to go about life like I feel I should. I owe it to myself to finally let myself fly free. Loyalty and oaths to people whom I have sworn that I'd watch over and never leave behind.
I jokingly told a friend once, "Alis na 'ko. This place will be the death of me if I stay." But you know what they say about jokes...most of them are half meant. However before I officially bid my farewell to this place, let me say thank you (tumutunog acceptance speech na naman ito). I have met great people here, some of which became good friends...and fewer, still, who I am certain that are for keeps. They are partly the reasons why it was so hard to leave. But, alas, i can not please everyone, thus where there are friends, there are people that I have not won over. Too bad, we never gave each other the chance to get to know each other better. Perhaps in another era? Or if not in this lifetime then maybe the next.
The past year and a half has been fun and heartbreaking. And as grateful as I am for every minute of it...
“I have learned that if you must leave a place that you have lived in and loved and where all your yesteryears are buried deep, leave it any way except a slow way, leave it the fastest way you can. Never turn back and never believe that an hour you remember is a better hour because it is dead. Passed years seem safe ones, vanquished ones, while the future lives in a cloud, formidable from a distance.”
― Beryl Markham, West with the Night
xoxo
Rae/Eya/Rhea signing out.
P.S.
See you around. :D
― Sarah Dessen, What Happened to Goodbye
People have been asking why I was leaving. Bakit daw hindi ko na tapusin yung 2-years experience. Sayang daw kasi, malapit naman na. I'd always answer with "Financial reasons po." It seemed an understandable and irrevocable reason as to why I couldn't stay. Then they'd ask, "Saan ka pupunta niyan?" I'd often answer with a laugh or a modest smile or a vague answer. The answers that I gave were never lies. At least not entirely. But I am also leaving for other reasons...and yes, I am leaving for love, loyalty and the promises that I have made.
Coming to this decision wasn't easy. I had many things to consider. Primarily, what kept holding me back was the sense of pride and responsibility that I had for my profession...Yung license na mahigit apat na taon kong pinaglaanan ng luha, dugo at pawis...na pinagpaguran din ng nanay ko. That's another reason, you know. My mother, what would she say? Then there was the question of if I could actually go through with it. I've never been on my own. Kaya ko kaya?
So many questions. So many doubts.
Eventually, I had to decide. I handed in my resignation with, still, a little room for doubt in my heart.. But I said to myself, "It's now or never...better NOW than never." So here I am now. As I am writing this, I grow more certain that I can not stay. Like I said, I am doing this for love, loyalty and oaths.
Love...not only for a separate person but love for myself, first and foremost. I owe it to myself to take a leap of faith...to go about life like I feel I should. I owe it to myself to finally let myself fly free. Loyalty and oaths to people whom I have sworn that I'd watch over and never leave behind.
I jokingly told a friend once, "Alis na 'ko. This place will be the death of me if I stay." But you know what they say about jokes...most of them are half meant. However before I officially bid my farewell to this place, let me say thank you (tumutunog acceptance speech na naman ito). I have met great people here, some of which became good friends...and fewer, still, who I am certain that are for keeps. They are partly the reasons why it was so hard to leave. But, alas, i can not please everyone, thus where there are friends, there are people that I have not won over. Too bad, we never gave each other the chance to get to know each other better. Perhaps in another era? Or if not in this lifetime then maybe the next.
The past year and a half has been fun and heartbreaking. And as grateful as I am for every minute of it...
“I have learned that if you must leave a place that you have lived in and loved and where all your yesteryears are buried deep, leave it any way except a slow way, leave it the fastest way you can. Never turn back and never believe that an hour you remember is a better hour because it is dead. Passed years seem safe ones, vanquished ones, while the future lives in a cloud, formidable from a distance.”
― Beryl Markham, West with the Night
xoxo
Rae/Eya/Rhea signing out.
P.S.
See you around. :D
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Dear You,
The worst part of your life is over now. Wipe away your tears. Get up. From now on, you will never be alone. You were never alone in the first place. During those hard times, I was there with you. Helping you carry the yoke that life has put upon you. I will NEVER leave you.
In times of despair, I will be there. In times of lost, you have me. I will love you through it all. I love you. In my eyes you are beautiful, and kind, compassionate, wise and intelligent. I hope you see yourself as I see you then you'd understand when I say that I love you and that I will never leave you.
I believe in you. I believe that you have the capacity to love the world and make it a better place. After all, you have everything that you need. You just have to believe in yourself too.
But please don't believe those who tell you that you have to change who you are for me to love you. I already love you for who you are. I don't ask for anything in return. I just want you to love yourself too and believe in yourself. You are worth all the beautiful things in this world.
I love you.
God
I dare you
today, i DARE you to READ anything--a novel, a short story, an article by a foreign or local author-- go ahead, take your pick. I DARE YOU to READ something and FINISH IT.
Some people wonder why literacy rates have plummeted over the years . I think it's because the majority of humans have forgotten their love for books, children (these days) most especially. Instead, they'd rather sit in front of a television or a computer. They'd rather watch the movies than read the books that they were based from.
I have nothing against modern technology. In fact, I'm a fan of it myself. But I still love to read. I try to read every chance I get. And it makes me sad that most people don't feel the same way about reading as i do. It makes me sad that some miss the chance to experience that reassuring serenity from reading. That rush from learning something new. Seeing the world through someone else's eyes. That thrill from trying to solve a mystery with the protagonist. The point is, nothing can stretch your imagination like a good read can. I guess that what makes me sad the most, you know. We have books for us to read them and if by grace we might as well learn from them too. SO read. Every chance you get. Especially since you HAVE the means to do so. Read. Because if you don't, then all those books are nothing but ink and paper.
Today, I DARE YOU TO READ SOMETHING AND FINISH IT.
Deal? Alright then.
Have a good read.
xoxo
RAE
P.S.
I absolutely salute parents who encourage their kids to read. And also, I salute you god-parents, aunts and uncles who give books rather than toys or cash.
Some people wonder why literacy rates have plummeted over the years . I think it's because the majority of humans have forgotten their love for books, children (these days) most especially. Instead, they'd rather sit in front of a television or a computer. They'd rather watch the movies than read the books that they were based from.
I have nothing against modern technology. In fact, I'm a fan of it myself. But I still love to read. I try to read every chance I get. And it makes me sad that most people don't feel the same way about reading as i do. It makes me sad that some miss the chance to experience that reassuring serenity from reading. That rush from learning something new. Seeing the world through someone else's eyes. That thrill from trying to solve a mystery with the protagonist. The point is, nothing can stretch your imagination like a good read can. I guess that what makes me sad the most, you know. We have books for us to read them and if by grace we might as well learn from them too. SO read. Every chance you get. Especially since you HAVE the means to do so. Read. Because if you don't, then all those books are nothing but ink and paper.
Today, I DARE YOU TO READ SOMETHING AND FINISH IT.
Deal? Alright then.
Have a good read.
xoxo
RAE
P.S.
I absolutely salute parents who encourage their kids to read. And also, I salute you god-parents, aunts and uncles who give books rather than toys or cash.
Silly Conversations I Have with Myself in my Head
You know those moments when your brain is just itching so much that you can practically hear it begging to be scratched? Well, I have those moments....and I scratch my brain with dialogues and plots and narratives...and the end result? Well you can read it for yourself. :)
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I know of only one truth: I am in love with you for all eternity. Can't you see? I am at your beck and call. All of me is yours. I assure you...no one has ever loved anyone as much as I love you.
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The best that you can do when faced with defeat is to be defeated with grace.
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She knew right then and there that it was over although he hasn't said anything. She heard it in his voice, felt it in his touch, saw it in the little things that he did and didn't do. She couldn't get mad at him though. She tried but she can't for she knew that he did everything to save what they had. And she would always love him for trying. But sometimes, doing everything isn't enough so she finally let him go...for his sake and hers...she said goodbye for them both.
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"It was love at first sight," he finally said. "You walked through that door and it was like Christmas morning and I was a kid again."
"Did you just quote Brad Pitt?" she asked him. That serene smile never leaving her face, knowing in her soul that he's the one.
" I guess I just did," he answered sheepishly. Then with certainty, he said to himself, I am going to marry this girl someday.
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There's a difference between not wanting to believe and not believing entirely.
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Siguraduhin mo na kapag magmamahal ka, buo ka. Hindi lang para sa'yo kung 'di para na rin sa taong nakalaan na mamahalin mo. Buo niyang ibibigay ang puso niya sa'yo kaya nararapat lang na buo rin ang pusong ibibigay mo sa kanya. Kaya nga sabi nila, 'Guard your heart above all else' di ba? Kasi ang puso, ang sarili, hindi basta-bastang ibinibigay. Kaya nga may utak tayo para gamitin natin sa pagkilatis ng mga taong paglalaanan natin ng pagmamahal.
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"I'm leaving you," he said.
"That's irrelevant," she countered.
Floored by what he heard, he asked her, "Why?"
With regret in her voice and a tiny hint of relief, she answered, "You were never here."
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You are going to find love. And it will be grand and exciting and it's going to be more than you have ever dreamed of. I'm not sure if it will be forever...but it will be worth every moment. Just be patient.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Hold on.
Stay awhile...
I just want to see your smile.
See that grin I love so much.
To hear that laugh.
To run my fingers through your hair.
Stay awhile.
Just a little while.
Let's talk about the old times
back when we both wore a younger face
and nothing troubled our limber minds.
Come to me and stay awhile.
Perhaps we can share another smile
over a cup of coffee or a cup of tea
whichever you prefer.
for old time's sake...
let's make another memory
because this might be the last you see of me...
or this might the last I see of you.
Let's not waste this chance...
perhaps we can rekindle that old romance.
for one last time..
Just stay awhile..
Leave me with good memories
I'll leave you with a smile.
Stay awhile...
I just want to see your smile.
See that grin I love so much.
To hear that laugh.
To run my fingers through your hair.
Stay awhile.
Just a little while.
Let's talk about the old times
back when we both wore a younger face
and nothing troubled our limber minds.
Come to me and stay awhile.
Perhaps we can share another smile
over a cup of coffee or a cup of tea
whichever you prefer.
for old time's sake...
let's make another memory
because this might be the last you see of me...
or this might the last I see of you.
Let's not waste this chance...
perhaps we can rekindle that old romance.
for one last time..
Just stay awhile..
Leave me with good memories
I'll leave you with a smile.
She felt paralyzed. She just... stood there. She felt a lump in her throat. Couldn't talk. Could hardly breathe. her heart was beating loudly like a bass drum, she was sure he could hear it. Her eyes wandered around the dimly lit room, looking for an escape...an excuse...anything! But she was too flustered for her mind to fully function.This man is going to be the death of me, she thought as he moved closer...walking slowly. Is he giving me the chance to bolt? She wanted to run far away from him but her naked feet were glued to the floor. He was still moving towards her. cautiously...forcing her to back down against the wall. Oh no! No where to run, she thought again. She had to look down on the floor. She couldn't bare to look back at those smoldering eyes.
Monday, May 13, 2013
Friday, April 5, 2013
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half way is less than all the way. therefore I did not ask for much. in fact, I cut you some slack and said,"hey, maybe you could just go half way of the 'half-way' and i'll meet you there." So I took 3 quarters of the distance to get to you...but no....you just HAD TO BE so DENSE and SELFISH...because when I got to the place where you were supposed to be, you weren't even there. So I ran the last quarter of the distance to you..lo' and behold...you didn't even take a single step.
You never heard me complain about it. No, you did not hear a single word. I guess I should've just spoken though. Then maybe, just maybe...you'd be giving me what i deserve...but with the kind of attitude that you have, is that even possible?
You never heard me complain about it. No, you did not hear a single word. I guess I should've just spoken though. Then maybe, just maybe...you'd be giving me what i deserve...but with the kind of attitude that you have, is that even possible?
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Happy Independence Day
It started with a joke between me and a very good friend. She was on duty that time and it was my day off. So I asked her, "What are you guys doing there now?"
She answered, "We're talking about where we'd be going on the 14th..."
"What's with the 14th? --February 14--," I asked.
"Independence Day di ba??" she answered.joking obviously, since we all know what happens every February 14.
"Oo yata. -laughs- Mas trip ko tagalog. Araw ng Kalayaan." I said, agreeing with her. laughing it off at the same time.
The conversation above happened last February 12 by the way. Since that night, I started referring to Valentine's day as Independence day. At first, it was meant to be a joke...later on, being as introspective as I am, I found a more profound meaning behind the joke.
Valentine's Day= Independence Day. Why not?
I'm guessing that you know the story of St. Valentine's right? err, Do you even know him? If yes, then good for you. You may proceed reading. ^_^ If you do not know him, however, ----shame on you by the way for not knowing who he is...JUST KIDDING---please click this link provided:
St. Valentine's Story
I think most people think that I'm bitter because I keep referring to this day as Independence day. Sorry to disappoint but that's not the case. Upon remembering St. Valentine's story, I realized that today could indeed be called Independence day...a day of freedom from the rules of society and the opinion of others. Freedom from self-destructive thoughts and emotions. Freedom from unhealthy relationships...and then, once we're free of all those unnecessary baggage, we can make room for love to grow...so we can experience how it is to truly love and be loved. It's just one day, but maybe, if we're able to give and receive love in it's sincerest form...even for just a day, it may open our hearts and mind to a lifetime more of ...LOVE.<3
that being said, Happy Valentine's Day....and Happy Independence Day.
From your Valentine,
Rae
She answered, "We're talking about where we'd be going on the 14th..."
"What's with the 14th? --February 14--," I asked.
"Independence Day di ba??" she answered.joking obviously, since we all know what happens every February 14.
"Oo yata. -laughs- Mas trip ko tagalog. Araw ng Kalayaan." I said, agreeing with her. laughing it off at the same time.
The conversation above happened last February 12 by the way. Since that night, I started referring to Valentine's day as Independence day. At first, it was meant to be a joke...later on, being as introspective as I am, I found a more profound meaning behind the joke.
Valentine's Day= Independence Day. Why not?
I'm guessing that you know the story of St. Valentine's right? err, Do you even know him? If yes, then good for you. You may proceed reading. ^_^ If you do not know him, however, ----shame on you by the way for not knowing who he is...JUST KIDDING---please click this link provided:
St. Valentine's Story
I think most people think that I'm bitter because I keep referring to this day as Independence day. Sorry to disappoint but that's not the case. Upon remembering St. Valentine's story, I realized that today could indeed be called Independence day...a day of freedom from the rules of society and the opinion of others. Freedom from self-destructive thoughts and emotions. Freedom from unhealthy relationships...and then, once we're free of all those unnecessary baggage, we can make room for love to grow...so we can experience how it is to truly love and be loved. It's just one day, but maybe, if we're able to give and receive love in it's sincerest form...even for just a day, it may open our hearts and mind to a lifetime more of ...LOVE.<3
that being said, Happy Valentine's Day....and Happy Independence Day.
From your Valentine,
Rae
Sunday, January 13, 2013
All We Can Do is Keep Breathing
...Relief.
It's what you feel when, finally, you let go of the breath you've been holding in. Like you've been swimming underwater forever and...finally...finally, you get to the surface.
with grace and thankfulness
People always leave.
People always leave.
People always leave.
…and the thought goes on and on
and on.
I couldn’t sleep last night and
all I could think of were the people who have left me and will be leaving me
behind. I’m not just talking about the emotional crap…physical distance hurts
too. The fact that you can’t see someone for days or weeks or years is not easy
on the nerves…especially if you’re used to seeing them every day. It sucks.
Just this morning I had a
conversation with a friend about people leaving and about how nothing is really
permanent in this world. He said, “We shouldn’t become too attached with
others.” And I said, “We should guard our hearts.” And so the conversation went…
But what if we do get too
attached? What happens when they eventually leave? How do you deal with it? How do you cope with the…loss? How do you
get pass the awkwardness or the pain?
I really don’t have answers to
those questions just yet. I’m not even sure if I’ll ever figure them out. So
for now, I’ll take things and people as they come and be thankful when they go.
Because how else do you live in this world other than with grace and
thankfulness?
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